I've been selfish in many different point in my life but none so much as when I prioritized drugs over everything else. I did some truly selfish and terrible things. But since getting sober (ten years this June!!) I've really tried to dedicate my life to helping others in any way that I can.
I always try to make myself flexible and available irl, I donate and volunteer regularly, I work as a medical assistant for the disenfranchised, and just generally put others before myself. I felt like I needed to make up for being such an awful human being in my past.. but now I've found that charity, compassion, and selflessness makes me unbelievably happy. There's such a reward for helping others without expecting anything in return and I live for those moments I can do something to make another person's day just a little bit better.